May I ask: how does it feel to admit that a more mature version of yourself might not have chosen the pivotal relationship which helped transform you into the person you are? One of the things that first put you on my radar was "This I Know". It's humbling to read that, in spite of the grief, that relationship maybe wasn't ultimately what was best for you. Yet your relationship, for better and for worse, is unchanging. It is as it was. Whereas you've continued evolving, growing, dissolving, reshaping yourself anew. Such depth to this, yet I understand why you might not want to dwell here. Also, when I first saw the title of this post I clutched my heart: Baba. I'm so glad she's still with you. I also recognize this is a liminal time in more ways than one. In my experience, death informs death. The death of my beloved cat Sage last year was not diminished because she was "just" a cat. She was my best friend and had been my companion through the death of my human beloved many years prior. It was so painful and I miss her so much, yet it was a grief I could carry because she taught me how. I don't know how much time you and Baba have left. I do know that you love her and she loves you. May that love carry you both forward toward what awaits.
Huge huge hugs to you and the sweet memory of Sage. Our beloveds really do look after us, even though we think we look after them.
To touch on your question: it feels okay! I feel endless gratitude and love to and for him and what his death taught me, always, and more and more compassion for my younger self. ❤️
I have followed you for some time and remember the very first installment of the very first chapter of this love story. I (amongst many, many others) will be here to read the rest of the chapters of this unfolding with a tear in my eye and a warm heart and wishes (and prayers) for the best possible outcome for for you both. This world is a tough one, but if we’re lucky we find huge blessings on the way which make things gloriously wonder-filled while here for a brief time. Thank you for sharing your journey. Love to you and that beautiful tri-colored being.
Thank you so much for sharing her beautiful life and your life together with us Susannah. Yes, your tears will not be over. It is so special when you are chosen and its the cats who choose us, the cats who we belong to (rather than the other way around) that hurt the deepest and longest. But, it is such a bitter sweet pain, grateful that we were chosen, grateful that we had some time to spend with a beautiful soul. My wish for you is that she lie peacefully beside you and drift into her next life, feeling your love and still giving you love. My thoughts and love rest with you both. <3
What a gorgeous girl and beautiful relationship between you. My partner and I nurtured our 3 cats from kitten-hood before we got together, and over our last 13 years together we loved them until their departures at 16, 19 and 20 years old. Elderly kitties are just the sweetest. Sending both of you lots of love ❤️❤️❤️
Clearly you've rescued one another and brought love & joy into each other's lives. A precious gift. Cats are the best....enjoy your sweet time together. Sending love & healing energy from my heart.
The uncomplicated relationship we have with our pets is precious beyond measure, and makes us so vulnerable to loss. I have a beloved, aging calico too who we almost lost last March. Every day she's with us is a gift, and I understand very well how you're feeling.
Oh Susannah - gosh. I have shed a few tears over this last post. She is a truly special kitty. And what a beautiful kitty too. Sending you so much love and healing sweet Baba x
Oh no! I’ve lost 3 of my boxer babies to cancer. It’s so damn heartbreaking. They are our children and have such a hold on our hearts. There are really never any words to address grief. Just know so many of us are sitting beside you sharing sacred space as you spend these precious days with Baba. Love and light❤️
Baba has had the best life, and chose it with you, and we got to share it too - I feel really blessed x
May I ask: how does it feel to admit that a more mature version of yourself might not have chosen the pivotal relationship which helped transform you into the person you are? One of the things that first put you on my radar was "This I Know". It's humbling to read that, in spite of the grief, that relationship maybe wasn't ultimately what was best for you. Yet your relationship, for better and for worse, is unchanging. It is as it was. Whereas you've continued evolving, growing, dissolving, reshaping yourself anew. Such depth to this, yet I understand why you might not want to dwell here. Also, when I first saw the title of this post I clutched my heart: Baba. I'm so glad she's still with you. I also recognize this is a liminal time in more ways than one. In my experience, death informs death. The death of my beloved cat Sage last year was not diminished because she was "just" a cat. She was my best friend and had been my companion through the death of my human beloved many years prior. It was so painful and I miss her so much, yet it was a grief I could carry because she taught me how. I don't know how much time you and Baba have left. I do know that you love her and she loves you. May that love carry you both forward toward what awaits.
Huge huge hugs to you and the sweet memory of Sage. Our beloveds really do look after us, even though we think we look after them.
To touch on your question: it feels okay! I feel endless gratitude and love to and for him and what his death taught me, always, and more and more compassion for my younger self. ❤️
I have followed you for some time and remember the very first installment of the very first chapter of this love story. I (amongst many, many others) will be here to read the rest of the chapters of this unfolding with a tear in my eye and a warm heart and wishes (and prayers) for the best possible outcome for for you both. This world is a tough one, but if we’re lucky we find huge blessings on the way which make things gloriously wonder-filled while here for a brief time. Thank you for sharing your journey. Love to you and that beautiful tri-colored being.
Thank you so much for sharing her beautiful life and your life together with us Susannah. Yes, your tears will not be over. It is so special when you are chosen and its the cats who choose us, the cats who we belong to (rather than the other way around) that hurt the deepest and longest. But, it is such a bitter sweet pain, grateful that we were chosen, grateful that we had some time to spend with a beautiful soul. My wish for you is that she lie peacefully beside you and drift into her next life, feeling your love and still giving you love. My thoughts and love rest with you both. <3
What a gorgeous girl and beautiful relationship between you. My partner and I nurtured our 3 cats from kitten-hood before we got together, and over our last 13 years together we loved them until their departures at 16, 19 and 20 years old. Elderly kitties are just the sweetest. Sending both of you lots of love ❤️❤️❤️
Clearly you've rescued one another and brought love & joy into each other's lives. A precious gift. Cats are the best....enjoy your sweet time together. Sending love & healing energy from my heart.
Leslie
The uncomplicated relationship we have with our pets is precious beyond measure, and makes us so vulnerable to loss. I have a beloved, aging calico too who we almost lost last March. Every day she's with us is a gift, and I understand very well how you're feeling.
Oh Susannah - gosh. I have shed a few tears over this last post. She is a truly special kitty. And what a beautiful kitty too. Sending you so much love and healing sweet Baba x
There is nothing like being loved by a cat
Your story is such a beautiful one, thank you for sharing. I wish you wasn’t already in that liminal time, but I’m sending you both so much love.
Thinking of you and your beautiful Baba. Hugs to you both and soft purrs from Chloe and Danny.
Simply - beautiful. Just what the world needs. A beautiful story with a happy ending…
You both won the lottery finding each other. Loved this walk down memory lane with you two. 💞
Oh no! I’ve lost 3 of my boxer babies to cancer. It’s so damn heartbreaking. They are our children and have such a hold on our hearts. There are really never any words to address grief. Just know so many of us are sitting beside you sharing sacred space as you spend these precious days with Baba. Love and light❤️
I'm so glad Ink on my fingers is back, even though the story is a sad one. Your words are so beautiful.
Baba has a beautiful story and is so deeply loved.